Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Last year wasn't a merry Christmas


I will always remember our last Christmas. We had invited my dad, who was living at a very nice senior complex, to spend Christmas Eve with us and spend the night. We had done our usual family tradition of going to a Christmas Eve Service at night after having done our usual New City feed our homeless friends in the morning. We had a great time at church and grandpa did fairly well considering it was cold outside and we went out for dinner.

As a kid I was usually up before the dawn awaiting the permission of the parents to open my gifts. As an adult I’m really not much different. So this last year I arose early and we took our herd for a walk and did our usual routine of Starbucks in the early morning. As we started to get ready for breakfast I started to wake up my dad. He was snoring so I assumed he was fine. I had just brewed some coffee and was in the process of getting a cup for my dad. As I started to help him sit up I realized something wasn’t right. I went ahead and handed him a cup of coffee. I will never forget how he grabbed it in a rather odd fashion.

I looked him in the eye and asked if he was ok. He responded quickly but I couldn’t understand a word he was saying. He had slurred speech and seemed a little disoriented. Anne was busy getting dressed after her shower. She came down and I asked her to watch grandpa as I did a few things. After I finished we both concurred that grandpa wasn’t ok. The last thing I wanted to do was call 911, follow my dad to the ER and spend Christmas in the hospital.

The firemen that helped my dad were incredible. They were very patient and slow with my 82-year-old dad who had dementia. I had no idea what was going to happen. The day had started off incredible and now I was waiting to see if my dad was going to live. It took a few hours for him to get checked out in the ER. They determined that he had a stroke and needed to stay at the hospital for a few days. They ran some initial tests and discovered he had a mild stroke.

After a few hours he was transferred from the ER to a normal room. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I didn’t cherish having to call my brothers and tell them that my Christmas had just been put on hold. They decided to do an MRI in addition to a CT scan. I knew it would take most of the day to get the results. He was now stable and able to rest. He was still a little confused and not as able to talk. He was a little frustrated when he realized what he said and what he thought didn’t jell.

The doctors met with me and gave a quick overview of what had transpired. He had a mild stroke and they decided to keep him for a few days and do an assessment. They also wanted to put him on a new medication that would help his dementia.  I had heard of dopamine when I did research in college. The specialist explained that this new medication would help with my dad’s ability to be agile and get around. I went home after this discussion.
I was upset and mad at the world. How could my dad have a stroke on Christmas? This had ruined my Christmas and made me doubt God’s love that would bring heartache and tragedy on this special dad.  I went back to my house and dove back onto my bed and crashed with my dogs. I must have slept like a baby because before I knew it my clock said 7pm. I had slept for a couple of hours with no regard to the time. As I pulled myself out of bed I walked down to our family that was finishing up their Christmas feast. I was thankful that my dad was stable but wasn’t necessarily ok.

The rest of my Christmas day was a blur. I was hurt by this happening and ticked that my kids didn’t respond that much to what just occurred. The following months was a journey that saw my dad go into a great rehab center, next to a group home and then back to the hospital and then rehab center. Needless to say none of this was exactly what I had thought would happen. My frustration mounted after my dad’s stay in a group home didn’t work out very well. We were up in flagstaff for a summer get away with my kids when I get a call from the group home owner asking if my dad should go to the ER because he had a bad cold.

I was so much wanting to get away with all of our kids and enjoy Flagstaff. We decided to just all go back to Phoenix and I end up spending most of the night with grandpa. He had pneumonia and wasn’t doing really well. They decide to keep him for over a week until they discover what is the cause for his infection that caused everything. During this time I have decided to ‘fire’ the group home and consider putting him back into a memory loss facility. Fortunately my amazing Anne and Heather had checked out a few places a few years before.

The incredible story is that we rediscover Clair Bride, an excellent memory loss facility,  that is in Tempe not too far from where we live. We did the usual walk through and make a decision, not knowing if this was best, to have my dad moved from the group home to this memory loss facility. His stay in the hospital meant that he would be in rehab for at least a month and maybe as long as 6 weeks. The great news was that dad had already been at South Mountain Life Care so we knew he would get excellence care and actually improve.

I can’t fathom now a year later my dad is a totally different person. He has gained weight, mobility and is actually more able to speak and think. This truly has been a miracle year with him going from the hospital to now being able to fly around with his walker. He’s become a passionate Lincoln Log builder and is now, contrary to his past, capable of sharing his room with another gentleman. I was truly amazed this morning after our Christmas walk with our dogs and Starbucks run that as I picked up grandpa he was singing, this is my story this is my song serving my savior all the day long.  I was almost in tears as I realized that my dad not only could still sing but actually remembered the words to this amazing hymn.

I brought him over for breakfast and we ended up having some special friends with their little guy over for breakfast. Grandpa had fun watching little Phinny walking all over the place. So I am so thankful that God has given me the experience of an unfortunate Christmas that now brings an amazing gift of a dad who is capable of getting around. His caregiver mentioned casually as I kidnapped him that he was now able to put his own shirt on. I know that this could be our last Christmas together or could be the first of many. My dad’s aunt lived to be 107 and grandpa is only 83. I am have a much better Christmas this year!

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